Depression. Everyone hates the word depression. No one wants to acknowledge that they are depressed. We live in a society that a huge portion of the people are depressed. The biggest reason for this, is sexual repression. Sexual repression leads to depression. Depression and refraining from sex, often leads to overconsumption of food. Which leads to weight gain. Which makes you more depressed. It’s a viscous cycle.
I have been depressed for years now. I never dealt with my depression. Instead I masked it with eating disorders. I am finally dealing with my depression over the last couple months. I took out all my distractions and addictions to break down the walls. Now my feelings can be heard again. Today I took some photos with JediRich. Here they are. I feel proud that I am breaking down the years of repression and depression.
It’s important to break that cycle of sexual repression. Sexual repression turns to depression. Which leads to overeating which causes weight gain and unhappiness. Our society has gone to a whole new level of sexual hang ups due to repression. Humans are insanely sexual beings. It is in our nature to have a lot of sex with a lot of different people. We are not monogamous by nature. That’s why so many relationships fail. They hold each other to standards that no one can happily meet.
We have rules in society, that you can only have sex with one partner for life. You may think that you are happy, but you will always feel inadequate. We are social people that want to have fun and fuck. We are not made to only be with only one person for life. for Our current society has put the kibosh on that. We have gone the opposite of more open. We are now so sexually repressed it’s ridiculous.
We have more sexual issues than ever before, because people are refraining from sex. The more you refrain from sex, the more depressed you will become. Your body is saying I want to fuck and you keep telling your feelings no. Ignoring your true feelings will lead to depression.
I have struggled with depression for many years. All depression ultimately stems from sexual repression, because sexuality is the core of our being. I am a very sexual girl. JediRich and I have sex at least once a day if not 2 or 3 times a day. We understand how important it is to be open with your partner.
JediRich and I are a Polyamorous couple. That means we are able to fuck other people within our relationship. We are open to multiple loves within our base relationship. JediRich and I are each other’s primary. Which means we are do or die together for eternity. We bring other people into our lives as we feel. We had a girl friend live with us a couple years back.
Even though we are a very open and sexual couple, sexual repression can still occur. It can occur daily. You have to keep yourself on your toes, to not let sex ever become a dirty thing to you. If you view sex as dirty, in anyway, then you are sexually repressed. If you are not fucking your partner daily, then you are sexually repressed. We are such sexual beings. You need to make sure for your health that you are either fucking or masturbating at least once a day.
Sexual repression is the biggest culprit for weight gain. When we deny our feelings what they really want, our body tries other methods like eating to compensate. If you push down your sexuality, then you will notice that you will struggle with overeating. Food can be a temporary mood lifter. When you eat the food, you feel good temporarily. Once you realize how much you ate, or if you feel sluggish, then the depression comes on ten fold. You have to get off this new trend of no sex, then compensating with food.
If people were being more open and poly, we would have a lot more attractive people. Sexual repression causes people to feel insecure. When people feel insecure, they do not represent themselves as well as if they are feeling good. Depressed people will never look as good as people who are free of spirit.
A free, Polyamorous person, will look more attractive, because they are in tune with themselves. Insecurity and depression is never attractive. Freedom to be your true self with make you look fresh and young. No one wants to be a dried up old depressed grump.
The best way to get out of depression, is listen to your feelings. That is the cure. Your feelings will tell you everything you need to hear. Often people ignore their feelings, because they think their brain knows better. Listen to your feelings, they will never lead you astray. Your own feelings are never wrong. Be good to yourself by finally listening.
I am finally starting to listen to my own feelings again, and my depression is starting to subside. It takes a bit of undoing. I have to retrain my brain. I developed some bad life habits, by not being in touch with how I felt. Your brain is all logical. If you just use your brain, you will have a boring life. Your brain is all about survival and keeping you safe. Having fun is not a priority of the brain. That’s your feelings. So you have to train your brain to listen to your feelings.
People often think that I am a Vegan when they hear that I eat all Organics. Vegan is often associated with healthy eating and living. Vegan eating can be very healthy if it’s consumption of all Organics and basically raw foods, no packages or genetically modified organisms.
Eating all Organics, is a must in order to have a healthy diet and lifestyle this day and age, ever since they started messing with the food in the 80’s. Now the Genetically Modified Organisms (GMOs), Dairy and gluten are starting to cause serious health and weight problems. Organics are necessary to stay fit and healthy. They do not require over exercise to compensate for weight loss. Light exercise is all that’s needed on an all Organic, GMO Free, Gluten Free, Dairy Free and Low Sugar diet.
The reason why Vegan diets are not always healthy is, they started marketing more products to the Vegans and Vegetarians. What that means is, they found creative ways to sell products to Vegans and Vegetarians. Once something is marketable, then companies start selling more products. Some of these companies have healthy products. Other ones do not, and a lot of the products contain artificial ingredients, gluten and GMOs.
I was a Vegan and then a Vegetarian from 1995-2005. During those times, it was still a little more difficult to get vegan options. I had to eat a lot of lentils sprouts and falafel. Now there are so many Vegan and Vegetarian options. A lot of these options are not healthy even though they are Vegan. These are two words are not equal. Vegan or vegetarian is not automatically healthy.
Some of these options are healthy, but most are not. Unless one is eating all Organics and basic items, like items not processed or packaged or genetically modified. One should do all their shopping in the produce aisle at the grocery store. If people are choosing packaged Vegan and Vegetarian options, then these are not healthy.
Recently, I heard that they have Vegan options at the fast food restaurants. This already sounds like an oxymoron to me. Healthy fast food. It does not exist. If there are Vegan and Vegetarian options at fast food, then you can realize that you have to be careful to not confuse all vegan options with healthy options. Once something had made it to fast food, you can already rule that out as a nutritious food. That is the epitome of commercialism Vegan Fast Food. There is nothing healthy about Fast Food. That is all processed, artificial non organic food.
Make sure when you are choosing vegan or vegetarian that it is Organic, GMO Free, Gluten Free, Dairy Free and Low Sugar. Another culprit for unhealthy options for Vegan and Vegetarian is if the sugar content is too high or has any artificial sugars or sweeteners.
If you want to be healthy and be a Vegan or Vegetarian, then you must eat basic organic foods like beans, nuts, vegetables and some fruit. Make sure that the options you are choosing are not full of sugar. I know when I was a Vegan, I tended to go for all sugary options like fruit and smoothies. Which led me to gain a lot of weight as a Vegan.
Although, there can be some benefits of fruit, these should be consumed in small amounts due to the high sugar content. It’s always a better option to choose veggies over fruit. That way you are getting the healthy benefits with lower sugar.
A high sugar diet has a list of health problems that follow. Sugar is the leading cause for harmful things to grow in our body. All living things feed on sugar. So the higher the sugar content, the better the environment you make it for “things” to grow. What these “things” I speak of can be is Cancer, Candida (yeast), bacteria, fungus, diseases and disorders.
Scientists are daily doing studies on the effects of sugar on your body. Now people argue that’s just refined, added sugar they are talking about. No...it is all sugar. Ideally humans should consume less than 35 grams or 2.5 tablespoons of sugar per day. An organic apple has about 12 grams of sugar. Easily the amount of sugar needed per day can be consumed quickly.
If you are struggling with your diet, it’s a simple switch to Organics. Also watch for GMOs, make sure to eat all Organics, definitely cut out dairy and gluten and keep your sugar at around 35 grams per day. If you do all those things, you will find that the weight sheds off, you feel amazing and you never have to go to the gym. I just do light workouts at home.
I am not a Vegan or Vegetarian anymore. There were a couple reasons why I stopped being a Vegan. The main reason was I was getting diabetic symptoms from the high sugar and I was gaining a lot of weight. I had started being a Vegan when I was 10 years old. I thought it was a fantastic option since I love animals and wanted to lose weight. 10 years into it and I was heavier than I had ever been. I decided I had to make a change.
So then I switched to a higher beef protein diet. That was what did it for me. I was unable to find options that would replace beef. The artificial meat has too many artificial things in it. I only eat food that is from the earth organically. I do not eat any genetically modified, artificial or gluten foods. So beef is all that works for me. I choose grass fed organic beef for my protein.
I love animals, so we shop at Whole Foods and get the grass fed, cruelty free, able to graze and farm raised cow meat. Of course I would prefer to not eat animals, but that’s not the way the Universe intended for us to live. People seem to not think about that plants are alive as well. They can feel when we eat them, most of the time they are still alive while we are eating them.
The Universe is a beautiful place. It is full of amazing creatures. We as humans are responsible to treat the other beings with respect. Are we as a society doing that? No, we are not. We have animals, plants and humans treated horribly every day. This is extremely sad to me. It breaks my heart. I hate seeing suffering. I wish I could make it all better. Unfortunately, I cannot change the laws. There are groups out there working to make changes like PETA. I commend them for that. Thanks PETA.
I would love if we went back to the old days before animal cruelty. The time before we had guns, and it was a fair battle between the animals and the humans. I would dig it being that way. Then it would be fight or flight for the humans and the animals. We would be having to watch for the lions, tigers and bears. That would be ideal. I know it is not that way. So I make the best out of my options. Being a Vegan caused a lot of health problems and made me gain weight, so cruelty free organic, grass fed beef from Whole Foods is the best option if you love animals but do not want to be a full Vegan or vegetarian.
It’s also super important to watch out and avoid Genetically Modified Organisms (GMOs). A lot of Vegan or Vegetarian options are made from GMOs or gluten. Both of those cause tons of health problems and are the leading causes for obesity. GMOs are causing a laundry list of problems. Everyday, Scientists are discovering new problems arising from GMOs and Gluten. We started using them regularly in the 80s. Now almost 40 years later, we have more health problems and obesity than ever before. Make sure if you are choosing Vegan or Vegetarian Foods, that you avoid GMOs and Gluten.
Whether you are Vegan, Vegetarian, meat eater or somewhere in between just make sure to eat all Organics and avoid GMOs, Gluten, Dairy, and keep your sugar low to feel great and lose weight.
JediRich got us a new green screen for our home studio. This is going to be so much fun. I am just starting to come out of my depression. I am looking forward to many adventures with this green screen. Look for more blogs in the future.
I have been super depressed over the last couple months. I am finally started to deal with the depression from my mother’s suicide and my brother’s motorcycle accident death. For years I drank and was bulimic to deal with the depression.
Now that I am finally healthy and eat all Organics and smoke cannabis, I finally am able to deal with all the pain and hurt from all those many years ago. We as a society often mask our issues with addictions. Addictions can be healthy things and not so healthy things. Anything that consumes a huge majority of our thinking is an addiction. Whether it be food, drugs, caffeine, sugar, diet, exercise, sex, whatever it is. All these things are fine in small doses. It’s if they start to consume your whole being.
If you are focusing a huge portion of you attention on one thing then you probably should adjust or stop doing that thing. Life is so complex, beautiful and vast. It’s a shame to waste all your time focusing on an addiction like food. Anything that becomes an addiction is also a distraction. These are distractions from the fact that you are depressed.
A large portion of humans are depressed and do not even realize that. Cannabis really helps with depression. I smoke cannabis everyday to help with my depression. It’s a life saver. I love that it is legal in Las Vegas!!
Did you know that it is legal to poison pigeons in Clark county and illegal to feed them? Some of you may think that makes sense because of the poo and diseases. Well it does not. Pigeons do not carry diseases. This is propaganda from the pest control companies. They claim pigeons carry “Bird Flu”. Pigeons immune systems are not capable of being a carrier of this disease. These are complete fabricated lies.
Clark county made a law that it’s illegal to feed pigeons. They even refer to them as “Flying Rats”. For one thing all animals are beautiful and amazing, including rats, but that’s a whole other topic.
Pigeons or “rock doves” are some of the sweetest and friendliest animals. They are extremely social animals. They love hanging out in big groups. They take care of each other and the young. The whole group watches over when there squabs are hatching. The worst thing they do is poo on things, is that a reason to make it illegal to feed them, or worse poison them? Absolutely not!!
What is wrong with this county. This is inhumane. In many other counties, states and even countries it is illegal to poison pigeons. It is fully legal to feed them. Opposite of Clark County. People all around the world view them as beautiful and smart creatures. Which they are extremely intelligent as well as fantastic pilots. They used them in the World Wars to carry messages. Passenger pigeons, they helped us win the wars. They were the original Tweeters on Twitter. Did you happen to notice that Twitter’s logo is a dove? They are super important to the Universe.
Who gives humans the right to kill these harmless creatures. No one gives them the right. This is wrong. All they like to do is clean up scraps, fly around and chill together. Who cares if they poo. Wash the buildings. There is no reason to harm a sweet creature over poo. We all poo. Our poo goes into the environment as well. That sewage in Clark County ultimately ends up back in the water supply. Maybe we should stop feeding all the people that passed these laws and poison them for pooing? That sounds like a good idea to me. You say, oh my that’s harsh. That is no harsher than killing innocent pigeons.
It is also point less to poison pigeons. When they poison pigeons all that happens, is it makes an easier environment for the remaining pigeons. There is more food for the remaining pigeons. The more food available, the more pigeons will breed. It is an unproductive and awful thing to do. It solves zero problems and just proves how terrible human beings can be.
Making it illegal to feed pigeons is ridiculous and cruel. In many areas like New York, feeding pigeons is a ritual that people love. It is even legal to own pigeons in New York. So why in Nevada, in the desert are we so worried about some poo? This is unacceptable by the Universe.
Pigeons care for their young, even better than most humans. Both the male and female are involved in sitting on the egg and sitting with the squab (baby pigeon) after they hatch. They sit with the squab for up to 25 days before the baby leaves the nest. They take turns feeding and sitting with the baby. The whole group around them becomes very protective of the baby squab. They keep on watch, to make sure other animals do not eat the babies. It’s a beautiful community they create. They are very loving creatures.
A pair just had a baby squab at our apartments. It’s so amazing to see the two of them taking turns caring for the young. It is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. The male and female share the responsibility equally. We need to learn from the pigeons. Too bad more humans aren’t like this.
We can learn a lot from birds. Birds see everything. It’s not a good idea to be awful to birds. They have been around longer than us. They are more intelligent than us. Just because we do not understand them, does not mean they do not understand us. They are very aware of the nice people and the awful people. We feel very honored that they decided to nest right by our place. It is rare to see a squab or a nest. Generally pigeons have their nests where no one can see them for protection. I was ecstatic to see the baby today. We will be keeping watch and getting video everyday while the squab is in the nest.
A law against feeding these wonderful birds, is absolutely ridiculous. It’s only one of many crazy laws in Clark County. What a contrast to the Wild West Las Vegas used to be. This was a fun place to visit or live. Now there are so many laws. This place has become almost stricter than anywhere. We have moved a long way from the Wild West heritage. It’s insane that we are even stricter than England on wild animal laws. I was under the impression people left England and came to the Wild West to be free and have less laws. I guess times have changed.
Now in the Wild West, they want to put you in jail for 6 months for feeding pigeons. This is out of control. What happened Clark County? No wonder tourism is at an all time low. This place has become all about ridiculous laws, that are not helping anyone and not encouraging people to come back if they do visit. A tourist could get arrested or fined for feeding a pigeon, or hula hooping, or the use of megaphones downtown. Yes these are real laws. Clark county used to have a law that it was illegal to feed homeless people. Even a sandwich to a homeless person could get you arrested. This eventually was deemed unconstitutional by a federal judge. Maybe a federal judge could deem poisoning pigeons and making it illegal to feed them unconstitutional as well.
Let’s get these awful laws undone. This is animal cruelty. I love pigeons. I view this as, that they are killing my friends. Clark County please reconsider this law, it is inhumane!!
I have never been a political person. I have never voted, because I think our election process is all messed up. The electoral college is a bunch of BS. I did not see the point of voting, even when I first heard of the electoral college in grade school. I thought so, we can all vote for a candidate and then all our votes can be wiped out by the electoral college. What’s the point I thought at 10 years old. I was even in the military and refused to vote. During that time we had Bush as President, which you all know was a shit storm.
After Donald Trump’s debacles over the last couple years, I am considering voting for the first time in 2020. I believe Bernie Sanders is our best candidate for President. I wanted him to win in 2016. Hilary unfortunately ruined that for him. She thought she would be the best candidate to take down the Trumper. Which as we all know went south. Bernie got robbed of the Presidency. He was the better option against Trump. I would have preferred Hilary over Trump even though she had her own issues, but Bernie got screwed out of the elections.
I am all for Bernie Sanders for 2020. I really enjoyed the 2016 slogan of “Enough B.S., it’s time for BS”. Bernie Sanders will make a fantastic President. He is all about equality, which is exactly contrary of the Racist we have in office. Let’s correct this disaster we brought upon ourselves by electing a goddamn buffoon named Trump. If anyone is still supporting him, they are clearly the greediest, nastiest people in the whole universe. They are a tag and Satan will have fun with them. Satan is the sweetest, he just let’s their own greed destroy them. No need for anyone to step in. Their greed and idocracy is unraveling before their very eyes.
Their “savior” Donny is now even signing Bibles. I’m sorry, I was under the impression you need to be the author to sign a book. Is he Matthew, Mark, Luke, John or Jesus? Last time I checked he did not even know how to pronounce second Corinthians. He called it Corinthians 2. I grew up Christian. Which I obviously no longer am!! Thank you Satan!! I have never heard in all my years in church anyone refer to it as Corinthians 2 or sign a Bible. Not even Pastors sign the goddamn Bible. My mom was even a pastor, oh and ya, she killed herself. By killing herself, she released me from the jaws of religion. Thanks mom!! You made the ultimate sacrifice, so I could finally see the light of Satan.
These Christians have it so backwards. Jokes on them for their judgement day. The ironic thing is Satan is not a judging entity. They bring all the judgement on themselves. Satan is about love and having fun. These Christians cause their own personal “Hell” on earth. No need to punish them, they punish themselves daily with all their rules and hate.
Trumpers (Republicans ie: Christians) take positivity as an insult. They are all about negativity. They cannot understand that their comments are all negative and hateful is why they are getting muted, blocked and banned on Twitter.
Liberals are about positivity. For example I wrote a positive note to Bernie Sanders, which was then followed by Trumper Hate. I don’t go to their accounts and say negative nasty things. I promote positivity and they cannot stand it, because they are so blinded by hate.
As they say, Opinions are like armpits or assholes. Everyone has em, and they stink. Unfortunately they confuse the difference between an opinion or hate speech and hate comments. This blog is my opinion, I am not going to their accounts and saying nasty things to them. They need to stick to their blogs if they want to give their hateful opinions. Everyone is done with their hate and nastiness. Even social media is starting to ban them. They are in uproar, they cannot understand that they are all negative and hateful, while liberals are about positivity and love.
Oh and let’s get Bernie Sanders elected for 2020!! Let’s bring love back into the White House!!
Today on International Woman’s Empowerment Day, I finally took action against a bully, stalker. I filed a police report against our neighbor Joey Carenza III, who has been cyber bullying me and JediRich for almost a year. He is a chauvinist, who attacks my sexuality. Today I took action and let the authorities take over from here.
2017 we started Periscoping (Twitter Live) our daily lives. We loved it. We even Periscoped daily during our entire Cave Adventure. We lived in a cave for 3 months from Nov 26, 2017- Feb 28, 2018. People really enjoyed watching us daily. We almost died in the cave when we both got sick. It was so cold and we got really bad infections. Our Periscope followers donated money to us on Go Fund Me a couple times when we were sick. The people on Periscope really loved us and looked forward to our daily Periscopes. They told us we were the highlight of their days.
Then when we moved out of the cave we continued to Periscope daily and documented our lives. We had over 13,000 Periscope followers. One day when we were periscoping at the pool in our complex, we ran into Joey Carenza III his Twitter is @fauxmantic. He said I follow and watch you guys on Periscope and Instagram. We thought that was kind of cool, but kind of strange that someone in our own complex was a follower. What a small world, or was he a stalker? Either way, we decided to be nice and invited him over for lunch since we love teaching people about Organics. We made him an all Organic lunch, we gave him weed and CBDs since he claimed he was suffering from depression. We hung out with him a couple more times over about a week long period.
All during the time we hung out with him, he was super friendly to me (JediJoy), and super rude to JediRich. We did some photo walks and he creeped me out by taking tons of pics of me that I did not realize till he sent them to me. We were going to take nature and train photos. He only took stalker photos of me. We let that slide. A lot of people get crushes on me, since I’m a friendly girl.
Then one day we decided to check his Twitter. It turns out he is a racist and a white supremacist and a huge Trump fan. He also told all his followers to flag every liberal person’s account on Twitter and Periscope. We are liberals and we did not like associating with someone filled with so much hate. So we decided not to hang out with him anymore.
This infuriated Joey, so he started flagging our Periscope account. We know that it was him, because we had been on there for over a year and had no problems till we stopped talking to him. We also knew that he enjoys flagging accounts. Every day our account would be taken down due to him flagging it. Periscope would bring it back up because we had not violated any rules, but it became very irritating. Every day we had to email periscope to reinstate our account. Then every day he flagged it numerous times till it got taken down again. We finally said forget it. He’s not going to give up.
We decided to start our own website so that no one could flag our content again. That’s when the harassment really started. He started writing nasty, crude, hateful and down right awful comments on our website. He even pretended to be my Mother In Law after she had written a nice comment to us. (How he learned her name). I was so upset that he would do that. She would have been mortified if she saw those nasty things written under her name. He wrote things about my brother who died in a motorcycle accident in 2008. He wrote a ton of nasty comments on the anniversary of my mother’s suicide. This really upset and disturbed me.
Luckily we monitor the comments. As anyone does for their own website. Joey got the idea that Weebly is the one that monitors comments and reviews on websites. He did not realize that people have the ability to not accept nasty, explicit, vulgar comments on their own website. He started to write that he was going to contact the Better Business Bureau (BBB) or RipOff.com since his comments weren’t being approved.
Joey believes that we write all our own comments. He does not understand that we have fans. He thinks he is the only one that is interested in our content. I don’t know why he believes this. We have people write nice comments to us almost daily. A lot of the people are our old fans from Periscope. We still have people text us all the time saying that they miss us on Periscope. We inform them that we have one hater that will not stop flagging our account. He is the only person that attacks us. No one else is mean to us. He must have thought that we believed we had a ton of haters, but all along we knew it was only him, since he uses the same IP address.
We were a little stunned that he did not understand general website things like that your IP address is given to the website holder and that the website holder is in control of approving or disapproving comments. He apparently thought personal websites were like social media. He did not realize that he could no longer get our stuff flagged and say nasty things publicly on our own site that we pay a monthly fee to Weebly to host.
Since he was so frustrated that he couldn’t take down our site, he started to attack Twitter and YouTube. He gave the thumbs down on our YouTube videos and wrote nasty comments on our Twitter and YouTube accounts. Then he decided to write a fake rip off report about our website. We contacted RipOff.com. Unfortunately they will not take it down, even though we informed them that we have never done business with this individual. We let them know the entire story. They said their hands were tied.
We still decided to let it go. We said let him have that. He feels he won, by bashing our photography business. It did not end there. He continued to write nasty comments on Twitter and YouTube and our website. He uses fake names, but they all come from his IP address. So we always knew it was him.
On March 7, 2019, he took it too far. The things he wrote on my Twitter was too much for me to handle. I said I’m done. I marched over to the front desk at our complex. Since he is our neighbor and the bullying and harassment will not stop, I decided to inform the management and security. They said they could not help me, but that I should file a police report against him.
We made one more attempt to try to get him to stop by asking him. We knocked on his door. He did not answer. We called his number, but apparently he had changed his number. I had no more options. The only option was to involve the authorities. Yesterday I called 311. They told me to fill out a report online. Which I did. Since I knew who the person was who was harassing me, they told me I needed to go in person to fill out the paperwork and talk to the officers. So I did this.
I am hoping this is the end of this nightmare. We informed Joey on Twitter of everything we were doing and put a copy of the Police report on Twitter. We even let a girl know, that he calls his soulmate in hopes that she can talk some sense into him. This did not work either.
The officer told me that the FBI has a site to file for online cyber bullying and harassment. The site is www.IC3.gov. As of right now, I am not going to pursue this any further. If he continues to do any more harassment or write even one more nasty comment then I will fill out a report with the FBI on IC3.gov.
Joey, I know you are reading this, please stop and leave us alone. You are already under police investigation. Please don’t make it worse on yourself and make me have to involve the FBI. Sorry we hurt your feelings. Now please stop or I will press charges. The officer also informed me that I could get a restraining order from him. Let’s let this be. Move on. We are not friends, but we did not need to become enemies like this. Enough is enough!! Thanks!!