Here is my singing practice from this morning without any edits. I let the camera roll. You can see the mistakes and the learning process. JediRich got me a microphone, which I am ecstatic about. I just started singing a couple weeks back. As you all know I was bulimic for 15 years and I had lost my talking voice. I never thought I would ever be able to attempt to sing. I could barely talk on the phone, because no one could hear or understand me. I was so hoarse all the time. Today is one of the first times I made a phone call by choice. JediRich couldn’t believe it. I always made him call, because I hated when people criticized my voice on the phone or asked if I was sick. The truth was I was sick and I was living a lie. I was mortified that someone would find out that I was bulimic. Even though it was so obvious, I convinced myself I was fooling everyone. Now that I am no longer bulimic due to Organics and Cannabis, I can talk, sing, dance, be free to be me. I love all these songs I sing. I might butcher them, sorry in advance to the original singers. But I love singing. I am improving and that is making me so happy. Thanks JediRich and friends for the support!!
I love dancing. It is such a fantastic work out. I used to dance for free on Periscope and then they banned me because I was dancing too sexy. So I decided to go on My Free Cams. I get to work out, dance, enjoy myself and make money at the same time. I recommend any ladies that love to dance, you can make money and workout in the comfort of your own home.
My mom committed suicide back in 2005. For years I was so upset, until recently I discovered that she is still here. I talk to her everyday. Your loved ones are still around. You can communicate with them. Once you realize that, your world is opened to everything. I always thought Reba McEntire reminded me of my mom. The first time I heard this song, I balled my eyes out. This is my mom’s song. She new there was more to life out there. She shares what she learned with me and JediRich!! Thanks mom, the sadness has turned to pure Joy. Death is not the end! It’s only the beginning to endless possibilities.
I have always loved music, but I have never been musically talented. I was bulimic for 15 years, which caused me to almost completely lose my voice. I know I cannot sing, but that’s the beauty of this. Who gets to see someone belting out music, out of tune, wrong words sometimes and just plane awful? Most people only post their best assets and sides for the world to see. Some people even choose to only be photographed on one side. I put it all out there for you to see. It does not matter that I am bad. I am learning and I am having a blast. So laugh, tease, do whatever, because I am in no way trying to show what an awesome voice I have. I am showing go do what you enjoy, post it and give people real life. We can show you our perfect sides, but that’s boring and done everyday. JediRich and I show you our whole life. This is true reality right here. Reality might be someone belting out a tune and be off key, but if they are having the best time of their life, what is wrong with that? Do what you love, the skills will come with time.