Here is my singing practice from this morning without any edits. I let the camera roll. You can see the mistakes and the learning process. JediRich got me a microphone, which I am ecstatic about. I just started singing a couple weeks back. As you all know I was bulimic for 15 years and I had lost my talking voice. I never thought I would ever be able to attempt to sing. I could barely talk on the phone, because no one could hear or understand me. I was so hoarse all the time. Today is one of the first times I made a phone call by choice. JediRich couldn’t believe it. I always made him call, because I hated when people criticized my voice on the phone or asked if I was sick. The truth was I was sick and I was living a lie. I was mortified that someone would find out that I was bulimic. Even though it was so obvious, I convinced myself I was fooling everyone. Now that I am no longer bulimic due to Organics and Cannabis, I can talk, sing, dance, be free to be me. I love all these songs I sing. I might butcher them, sorry in advance to the original singers. But I love singing. I am improving and that is making me so happy. Thanks JediRich and friends for the support!!
I love dancing. It is such a fantastic work out. I used to dance for free on Periscope and then they banned me because I was dancing too sexy. So I decided to go on My Free Cams. I get to work out, dance, enjoy myself and make money at the same time. I recommend any ladies that love to dance, you can make money and workout in the comfort of your own home.
My mom committed suicide back in 2005. For years I was so upset, until recently I discovered that she is still here. I talk to her everyday. Your loved ones are still around. You can communicate with them. Once you realize that, your world is opened to everything. I always thought Reba McEntire reminded me of my mom. The first time I heard this song, I balled my eyes out. This is my mom’s song. She new there was more to life out there. She shares what she learned with me and JediRich!! Thanks mom, the sadness has turned to pure Joy. Death is not the end! It’s only the beginning to endless possibilities.
I have always loved music, but I have never been musically talented. I was bulimic for 15 years, which caused me to almost completely lose my voice. I know I cannot sing, but that’s the beauty of this. Who gets to see someone belting out music, out of tune, wrong words sometimes and just plane awful? Most people only post their best assets and sides for the world to see. Some people even choose to only be photographed on one side. I put it all out there for you to see. It does not matter that I am bad. I am learning and I am having a blast. So laugh, tease, do whatever, because I am in no way trying to show what an awesome voice I have. I am showing go do what you enjoy, post it and give people real life. We can show you our perfect sides, but that’s boring and done everyday. JediRich and I show you our whole life. This is true reality right here. Reality might be someone belting out a tune and be off key, but if they are having the best time of their life, what is wrong with that? Do what you love, the skills will come with time.
I was bulimic for over 15 years. There are many symptoms of bulimics. The number one is a hoarse voice. No one unless they are sick has a voice as hoarse as a bulimic. Bulimic’s will lie and say that’s just the way their voice is. That is not the case. No one’s natural voice sounds like they have laryngitis. That is only when they have a disease or disorder like bulimia. The reason why I am talking about this is I want to help. Bulimia is a sad and lonely existence. I almost died several times when I was bulimic. I had to be injected in the hospital with Potassium 3 times, because my Potassium levels were at lethal levels. Potassium is such a strong mineral that they have to do a 5 hour drip into your veins. If they do it faster your veins will rupture. It’s excruciating pain during this process. Even after this occurred 3 times I still continued to be bulimic. People would say how is that possible. Well it’s a disorder, it takes over you life. It is extremely hard to quit, because everyone has to eat. You cannot just quit food for like you would if you had another addiction like alcohol for example. You can quit that. You cannot quit eating. So unless you switch to Organics, bulimia will continue. The way I quit is by eating Organics, GMO Free, Gluten Free, Dairy Free, No added sugar, No artificial sweeteners, No Alcohol and No Caffeine. This probably seems extreme to most, but this is the way people used to eat. We are eating what our ancestors ate. It was not till about the 80’s that they started messing with all the food. The food industry is the biggest and richest industry in the entire world. You are delusional if you believe that the food industry has your best interest.
I am bisexual. I believe that everyone is bisexual by nature. In our current society, people would never admit this. If one listens to their own inner feelings they will realize sexual attraction and sexuality comes in many different forms. All beings are attracted to both sexes. If beings did not find the same sex attractive then we would never find ourselves attractive. Now if you say JediJoy, well I don’t even find myself attractive. That is only because a lot of people are dealing with depression and weight problems. This is not your fault. This is a problem with the food industry. They have destroyed food. What food has become is a death trap. We only eat Organics, Gluten Free, Dairy Free, No added sugar, no sugar substitutes, no alcohol and the big one no caffeine. This appears to be super extreme. Well it has become that way due to the food industry lying to everyone and selling food that makes you sluggish, overweight, sick and eventually leads to early death or suicide from being so discontent with your looks. So if you look past criticizing your weigh you will remember that you do love yourself. Switch to Organics as the first thing to transition to a healthy lifestyle. Once you feel good about yourself, you will want to be sexual again. You will find every sex attractive. You will no longer put yourself or others in a box. Do not define yourself as straight, gay, lesbian, etc. Those are all labels and restrictions. Be open to loving every race, color and sex. Do not limit yourself to one sex. Then you write off half the population. You cannot love your own body if you deny that you are attracted to the same sex as you are.
This summer I learned to properly swim. I found a love for water. We live in an apartment without a heated pool so we can only swim over the summer. I found I was getting sad without being with my water friends. JediRich recommended I start taking baths. I used to hate baths. Now I absolutely adore them. I get to sing, dance, relax, massage my muscles and meditate. I recommend anyone that thinks they don’t have enough time for a daily bath, just add about 20 mins to getting ready. Wake up a tad earlier for work. It is a fantastic way to start the day. Men too, JediRich gets in their everyday. I also recommend getting a Jade Stone tool from Amazon. This is the most fantastic pain relief tool you will ever use. It scrapes the lactic acid out of your muscles. It will improve your flexibility, strength and it will alleviate those knots that have been giving you pain for years. When I first started using it, I actually had to have JediRich do it because it was so painful. It is similar to a deep tissue massage. It’s that awesome pain though. The kind that afterwards you feel like a million bucks once you get though it. I highly recommend giving one a try. You will be amazed!