I have struggled with eating disorders most of my life. My mom had eating disorders and was super weight conscious. This put a lot of pressure on me as a young girl. I knew at a young age that being thin was super important in our society. My mom viewed being thin as self control and put you closer to God. My mom was very religious.
I started out being anorexic. I would eat 300 calories a day. I figured out that l could eat three yogurts that were 100 calories each and fat free. Who would have known I was consuming tons of sugar. Each one of those yogurts has close to 50 grams of sugar. I was quickly falling into the eating disorder diet that consists of all sugar.
I decided to become Vegan during this time to be thin. I found out that being Vegan made me fatter due to all the breads, gluten and grains I was eating. This drove me nuts, so I finally resorted to throwing up all meals. I remained a Vegan till about 17 years old when I entered the Air Force. I figured since I was throwing up, it did not matter if I ate vegan or not. So I started eating everything and anything.
A lot of us emotionally eat. We eat to replace love, sex, happiness money, anything to make us not feel for a minute. Sugar is a drug. People become addicted to sugar. It’s the hardest drug to quit, because you can never fully quit sugar. You need sugar to live in the fact that everything eventually breaks down to sugar. You need sugar but it can easily kill you and is a super powerful drug. It’s a predicament.
People do not want to be addicted to sugar. Most people are not even aware they are addicted to sugar. Sugar is why so many people are struggling with their weight. Sugar causes so many health issues. That’s the main problem with eating disorders. When you have an Eating Disorder, your body is living off of sugar, because sugar is the easiest instant energy to your body.
Let me explain this a little more. When you have an Eating Disorder your body is in emergency mode. It will look for the easiest and most convenient ways to get energy. So your body will crave tons of sugar and then it will want to store all the extra sugar as fat since your body is not trusting you.
When you have an Eating Disorder, you confuse your body and brain. Your body does that trust that your brain is making the right decisions. So it puts fat storage for emergencies usually in your stomach region. That’s why you end up gaining weight over the years, even if you throw up every meal.
Eating disorders end up giving you a body that you do not desire. You want to be thin, but you end up looking awkward and too thin. What happens with Bulimia is you get tiny arms and legs, but a big bloated mid section and usually a bloated face and big head. This is the bobble head effect that girls get. What happens is their head becomes disproportionately large compared to their tiny body giving a bobble head appearance.
People start to get even more self conscience with an Eating Disorder, because their body becomes strange and unproportional. No one wants to look the way bulimia eventually leads to, but the disorder gets out of hand and you don’t have a choose. The biggest signs that a girl has an Eating Disorder is if she has tiny legs, huge knees, a large head and carries her weight in her mid section. As you can see in all my old photos.
At the end of the day, you look so much better and healthier if you eat all Organics, GMO Free, Gluten Free, Dairy Free, Caffeine Free, Alcohol Free and Low Sugar. Eating disorders are never going to get you to your dream body. You will always feel awkward and guilty if you are doing an eating disorder instead of eating healthy and taking care of yourself. Bulimia is never a smart option. It will lead to weird weight pockets and health problems. Throw bulimia out the window, switch to Organics.