For years, I hated swim suits and especially bikinis. If I wore anything, it would be a one piece with shorts over it. I was extremely self conscious my whole life. I had Eating Disorders for a majority of my life, which doesn’t help with confidence.
The problem with eating disorders is you never feel good about your weight and body. Even if you are thin, you feel as though you are living a lie and a fraud. Eating disorders are an escape rather than dealing with feelings. It’s not all the scary, once you finally allow your feelings to come through.
Your feelings are you, you never need to be scared of your own feelings. People are though. That’s why they distract with food, jobs, kids, partners, hobbies, religion, drugs, alcohol, Caffeine and any other thing that fills up your time. If you are not making time for your feelings, then they will not make time for you. That’s what we call depression.
Listening or trusting or dare I say obeying your own feelings is harder then you realize. Your feelings will usually tell you your current situation is making you unhappy. That’s why people push down their feelings. The feelings are the truth and often your feelings will make you uncomfortable for a bit. That’s what we call living.
Never being uncomfortable is worse than dead. That means your life is meaningless, pointless and mundane. It’s better to be uncomfortable and happy everyday than comfortable and miserable. Being comfortable will make you miserable. Humans need variety, and change. As much as you think you hate change, you need it everyday. Otherwise don’t get out of bed. What would be the point if you want everyday the same. Groundhog Day much?