I'm searching for a director level position.  I am updating my resume and profile pics. I keep my profile pics updated because I want to give my potential buyers, clients and even future employers an accurate representation of what I look like. If I used old photos or caricatures, then they will feel misled when we meet.

If you have an iPhone you can order an Amazon Basic tripod for about $20.  Set up the tripod and use your Apple Watch as a photo trigger.  The Apple iPhone has a portrait camera.  With proper lighting an iPhone and a tripod, you can make your photos that look as good as a professional.

When the banks began tightening their credit requirements just prior to the mortgage crisis in 2008, the New York Time called to interview me about how the softening economy was affecting our business. I remember feeling so embarrassed that they posted those numbers.  Had I only known it was going to get worse before it got better.   You can read the full article here.

It’s the first weekend of Fall 2021 and it's my first Fall back in New York City since I left Manhattan in December of 2003.  It feels really good to be back in New York. I feel kind of like Rumpelstiltskin who fell asleep 20 years ago and he just woke up. 

After 9/11, I got depressed.  Looking back, I "checked out."  The closest thing to friends I had were just users.  They really didn't care about me or what was going on with me in New York.  I had little or no support from family.  I started seeing things.  I started hearing dead people.  I was literally losing my mind.  

​Friends would tell me they saw me talking to myself on the streets.  I would get defensive. "No I wasn't!",  I exasperated. The truth was I did not recall when or what they were talking about.  I was convinced they had me mistaken for someone who liked like me.    That started another delusion.  I thought I had doppelgänger that was slowly trying to replace me. I knew that wasn't possible but the feelings were so real that I told my therapist.  She said I was suffering from condition that was a result of looking for comfort as a result of significant loss or something.  Kind of like how people see messages in clouds or signs everywhere after surviving a tragedy. That scared me.  I was starting to believe there was something permanently wrong with me. I got a second doctor.  I was seeing two Manhattan doctors 4 times a week.  They were genuinely  concerned about my life.  They thought I was going to kill myself.  They were right, but I did not know it at the time. I thought they were trying to milk me for more money, just like my girlfriends, family and friends.  But they were not trying to scam me.  They were trying to help me.  I was so turned around.

Of course I am only able to recall these memories now.  The memories were locked up away, a long time ago.  I am beginning to process some very painful emotions as I come out of my depression.  I am feeling a lot of anger.  My anger has been misdirected for the past 20 years.  Now, I am recalling those people who stole from me, lied to me or cheated me.   

I grew up with money. I made a lot of money. And I have always been generous with my money.  Generous men with money will attract a certain type of woman.  I literally had one woman steal money from my savings account after we broke up.  I take that back.  I had THREE women steal money from my bank accounts AFTER we broke up. 

I was very open when I was dating women in my 20s and 30s.  I did not care what race, shape, size color or even sexual preference as long as we got along, laughed and were in love.  I should have been more selective but what criteria does a person use?  Parent's criteria are too old.  Things change.  The Bachelorette was helpful.  I watched several seasons.  I say that with a twist of sarcasm.  I have to learn for myself.  And I learned that there are some people who love money more than anything. And those are people I cannot trust and I certainly would not marry. 

I write these articles about my ex's and fake friends for my personal benefit.  I cannot afford a therapist.  This is how I express what I'm feeling.  Fortunately, I've had decades of therapy help me with this process.  

Xavier made a verbal threat followed by l aggressively moving inches away from Kyand’s face.  Later, Xavier admits that "s**t was could have got violent" if Kyland didn’t leave the house.

Xavier is running the house.  Xavier has played Cody's game better than Cody.  He has lied to everyone in the house .  He lies while he's confessing.  He's a master manipulator.  Azah doesn't care if he wins the money. She hopes to be with him after the show.  Derek has not won one competition.  Derek literally asks Xavier what to do.  

The winner of Big Brother is a person who has the ability to make really strong relationships built on trust and then break their promises before the other person does it to them.  In order to do so, you must be able to lie to your best friend or to someone you love. 

The Jedi only eat 100% grass fed beef because grass fed is healthier than grain fed or conventional beef.  Conventional cattle are fed GMO crops of soy and corn.  There are no organic soy or corn crops. Soy and corn are complex sugars also known as carbohydrates.  Cows that eat soy and corn get obese very quickly.   Obese cows taste better than healthy cows.  But an obese cow's meat has too much fat.  Too much fat will make you gain weight, even if you're on an all protein diet.  

Butchers and farmers think that its best to have fat cows.  This is because the USDA grades beef on the amount of fat interlaced in the meat.  This fat in the meat is called marbling.  The more marbling, the better the taste,  The better the taste, the higher the grade.  They are only concerned about making meat taste good.   

​Grain fed cows are obese. Cows will over consume grains. Corn and soy will make a cow obese. Same is true with humans who eat a vegetarian diet. #health #food #nutrition ​​

The Jedi are always talking about our diet. We only eat 100% grass fed organic beef. Sound easy? It's not. Butchers are unaware of the benefits of grass fed beef. The attitude we get is they think anyone who buys organic grass fed beef is stupid because they are overpaying for beef. That's because they judge beef based not taste and flavor not healthiness. Grain fed cattle are obese. That's why they are juicier than grass fed beef. The extra fat in the meat makes the beef more tender and more flavorful but it also makes the beef unhealthy. Too much fat in beef turns to glucose. Have you ever cooked brisket or short ribs? The fat actually caramelizes on the meat. It is sweet to the taste. You are actually eating sugar which will make you gain weight.

When you lose a lot of weight, your skin will sag.  I found I can tighten my skin by eliminating sodium, eating only protein and using the AUVON TENS electrical massager from Amazon.  I got mine for only $36.

Someone asked on Twitter: Who's your favorite Vegas YouTube Blogger? That got me thinking... There are a lot of YouTube Bloggers. Here are 3 of my favorites... plus 1!