People Who Are Depressed are Unaware they are Depressed
Today Jedi Joy asked me to leave and never come back home. It’s because I got upset yelled and destroyed my studio. Although I didn’t really destroy it I just threw things around to make my point that I was upset. We got in a fight because I was taking a shit. I told her I was going to take a bath. She sleeps a lot so usually I can take a bath and take do my thing while she’s sleeping. However she’s been on this kick where she doesn’t want to sleep so she forces herself to wake up when she hears me get up. So now there are two people trying to use the bathroom. Hence I’ve had a very difficult time getting a shower in the last couple days actually the last couple weeks. There’s only me running the JediRich.com studios. We don’t have the resources.
I spent much of my day trying to get Jedi Joy to do something she enjoys doing. I try to show her how she can be happy. This is not easy. Every suggestion is met with a strong negative no I can’t I don’t want to I don’t know how. Finally I convinced her that because you can talk you can sing. So now I have got her to sing but she doesn’t practice on her own. It’s only when working with her. Don’t get me wrong I love music. I love teaching people to sing. However when a person perverts that to use it for their own selfish means so that they are not depressed than everyone feels used.So she doesn’t realize the amount of energy it takes to listen to a person who has no idea how to sing and who doesn’t want to take any instructions and you have to sit and listen to them for hours,”.
It’s called being unaware. When you’re depressed you look for something to distract yourself. I am Jedi Joy‘s distraction. That’s why when things don’t go her way with me she immediately hates me and kicks me out. Because I’m just a distraction for her depression and if I don’t distract her from her depression that she has no use for me. And I go. This by the way was the same marriage tactic her mother used on her father.
Jedi Joy’s mother suffered from depression. In fact she killed herself with a gun in November 2005.
Former banker and CEO, Jedi Rich Lightowler changed his life after 9/11 to pursue his passion for modeling, photography, music and video.